Dancing

Uncategorized — frozensummers on November 30, 2007 at 4:22 am


Dancing is something I have never understood.

Now don’t misunderstand me:
The grinding, groping, dry humping stuff I understand.

That is basically public foreplay.

Which is cool, I just prefer better music than what they play in a “club”

In fact, I could probably whip up a whole album of club music in a day if there was some financial incentive.

But, back to my main point….

People have always argued that there is more to dancing than just preparation for penetration.

Such arguments came up many a time back when I was an evangelion evangelical.

Mainly because the “pure” and “innocent” christian girlz took offence when someone like me said one of their hobbies was on par with a blowjob. Something that would never admit do.

Of course, someone will make the argument that it is about responding to how the music makes you feel or what have you.

Which is something I also have a vague understanding of, being the best musician in the world my house. I’ll even support your point, as long as it is some kind of solo spontaneous response – like my air drumming.

It is when things get organised and/or involve multiple people. Especially something with a set of complicated steps that are supposed to be replicated exactly over and over. That doesn’t seem like fun to me. I’d term that kind of thing work at best, and I’d probably describe it as the worst kind of hell.

Mainly because I’m one of those spontaneous, improvisational types. I can’t even play the same guitar solo twice, or stick to a recipe.

Anyway, dancing is not something I have ever done without serious threats as a motivation…. and even then I was able to not do it on occasion (because boys are smarter than girls and there were more of boys at high school).

I just don’t see it as fun. I won’t ever be doing it. I haven’t ever “gone dancing”, and I won’t be in the future.

Which is probably why I’ve never kissed a girl, and probably never will.

Well…. I don’t give a fuck.

Pics stolen from here and here

Meaning Less?

Uncategorized — frozensummers on November 27, 2007 at 4:08 am


Some would say that life is what we make it.

That we keep walking because the meaning is in the journey. Even those who believe in a happy destination have such views.

I have an inclination towards that view.

Of course, if the only destination is death, then the point has to be in the journey.

The point is to see the good in my labour, and enjoy it. To be happy in my activities is the only meaning to be gleaned.

Which is all well and good when those activities have a result.

But mine don’t seem to.

Take today for instance, I did alot of things…. I listened to some podcasts, I played some xbox, I watched a movie, I recorded the song I wrote yesterday.

Yet, it seems like it is all in vain.

I didn’t earn any money.

I didn’t contribute to society, at least not in any kind of important way. Sure a dozen people might listen to the song I recorded when it is released, but maybe they won’t.

It’d be okay if things balanced out. If for every time something in my life was torn down another thing was built up. If the weeping was balanced out by the laughing.

But it seems like for me it is always time to mourn.

Like it is always time to tear apart.

Like it is always time for hate.

Just once I’d like it to be time for love.

Images stolen from here and here

Meaning

Uncategorized — frozensummers on November 25, 2007 at 3:34 am


As the saying goes all is vanity. When it comes down to it, there is no ultimate purpose to life.

No matter what I do, or don’t do. No matter what I say, or don’t say. In the end you can’t escape thermodynamics. The fate of the universe is predetermined, we will reach a state of total entropy – the heat death of the universe.

If I was to take an M4A1 and work my way down that “list” of people until the police caught up with me, the universe will end up the same.

If I was to become the top musician in the world and discover my music holds the key to world peace and ultimate truth, the universe will end up the same.

Ultimately all our deeds, all our works…. even all our descendants will be wiped from the pages of the universe. It will be as if they never happened. There is no final judgement, no weighing and measuring, just a vast expanse of nothing.

Our afterlife will not be some kind of paradise or torture, determined by what we did or didn’t do, or what we thought or believed.

Our afterlife is decay. Our afterlife is entropy.

So….

Why?

What is the point if there is no point?

Resisting entropy is futile, so why do we?

If we are all on a path to nowhere, why do we keep walking?

Images stolen from here and here

Love aka Return of the Blog

Uncategorized — frozensummers on November 22, 2007 at 8:57 pm


Think back over your memories…. try to remember the last time someone expressed affection for you. Maybe someone said “I love you”, or even “I like you”. Maybe someone gave you a kiss, or a hug or just that casual loving touch. I’m sure there are more ways that people express affection, people have built whole careers writing books I haven’t read about it.

So, think back to the last time. Maybe it was just before you read this post, or even during. Maybe it was this morning, or yesterday. Maybe it was last week.

I have a lot of free time at the moment (like all 168 hours a week), so I get to do alot of thinking. Or at least I get the time to do alot of thinking.

Typically I try to pack my time completely full, from waking to sleeping I am busy doing something. It might be reading, or listening to a podcast, or writing a song, or whatever. Mostly because when I think, I get sad.

Why do I get sad?

Because when I think back, I can’t remember a time when someone expressed affection towards me in person.

I can’t remember my parents saying anything loving. They might have a long time ago, but not in recent times.

I can’t remember a woman doing or saying anything that was unambiguous. Sure arguments can be made about this or that situation, but no dates, no kisses, no “I love you”. Not once.

So to me love is something I see other people giving and receiving. Something that I try my best to give, but no matter how hard I try, no matter how much I pour my feelings out there, they come back empty.

And when you gaze long into the abyss, the abyss also gazes into you.

Or to put it another way, that lack of affection becomes a defining characteristic. I have come to expect that I don’t receive affection. At times I even feel that the world is right, and I don’t deserve affection. That I am worthless and useless and hideous and fit to be burned….

That I am unlovable….

Image stolen from here

This is not a post….

Uncategorized — frozensummers on November 13, 2007 at 4:36 am

cash advance

Temporary Hiatus

Uncategorized — frozensummers on November 8, 2007 at 3:20 am

So…. strange things are afoot at the circle-k and I need to unplug.

Don’t expect a post on here until…. I don’t know.

I will still be posting a new song every sunday over at chaotimusic but that will be it.

Of course this hiatus may last less than 24 hours, in which case you readers (both of you) won’t even notice.

Or it could last much longer….

My God

Uncategorized — frozensummers on November 7, 2007 at 3:42 am


Unicorn….

Men they seek, but can’t find.

Unicorn….

Reclusive, Horned Equine.

Picture “borrowed” from LOLTheist

My song about the unicorn who is both invisible and pink can be found over at chaotimusic.com…. or just click here

I am captain pollution

Uncategorized — frozensummers on November 5, 2007 at 9:31 pm

Dude!

Hate

Uncategorized — frozensummers on November 5, 2007 at 3:07 am

Toxics

Uncategorized — frozensummers on November 5, 2007 at 2:13 am

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