This week has been weird.

Not just the normal weird, but a whole extra level of weird. The kind of weird that makes me think I’ve stepped thru the scary door.

Maybe someone spilled coffee into the surreal generator and caused it to overload.

Or maybe it is just an interesting sequence in the pseudo-random number generator that is our universe.

Whatever the cause, the effect has been interesting.

I haven’t felt sad all week.

At least not sad about me…. I did feel sad while watching a video the other day, but the sadness (and tears, because I regularly tear up watching stuff) was purely due to the content.

Which is weird.

In fact, mostly I’ve been feeling not sad.

Usually my emotional state bounces up and down, but the peaks only reach the middle.

Which is to say that the best I feel is usually neutral, not happy or joyful or any of a thousand positive emotional adjectives.

This is the kind of thing that has caused armchair psychologists to “diagnose” me with some kind of mental illness.

This week is different, because I’ve been hovering above the middle line.

Not that I’m super mega ultra happy or anything….

If the scale ran from -10 to 10, usually I stay below 0, and this week I’ve been averaging 2.

There have been some spikes above that….

Which of course leads me to say “I told you so”.

I’ve always responded to the armchair psychologists by saying that my emotions are purely a function of my circumstances.

That if parts of those circumstances were to change, then my emotional state would change. Those circumstances aren’t directly related to any “group” that may have formed, but that group has added greatly to the surrealism.

Someone said:
“It’s not so simple a matter as moving from “No girls think I’m attractive” to “Okay at least (x) girls have found me so attractive as to give me a chance”.”

This week would seem to show that it is that simple, and that currently x>=4

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