Click here to travel back 2 years to read the post to end all posts

So…. it was 2 long years ago when I made that post and I thought I’d take some time to write a little something to recap where I’m at.

Firstly, and most obviously, I haven’t relapsed. I’m still proudly anti-god. No one has pulled me back from the wilderness (not that any have really tried). For a while there part of me, a small part, actually wanted someone to do so. I was hoping someone would show me the where I was wrong, or what I was missing, or in some way lead me back to the light.

This didn’t happen and now I’m glad, because I don’t want to be saved. It isn’t true. The bible is just the incoherent ramblings of a bunch of ancient (but not as a ancient as the traditions say) Jews. 90% of it total bullshit; the other 10% is totally obvious. Sure it is interesting from a historical point of view, but only because it isn’t historical despite the claims it might make.

Secondly, I’m still on campus (although not right now since classes aren’t on). This sucks, but only because it doesn’t pay me enough money to get the fuck out of dodge and get my own place. I enjoy teaching at uni, but that enjoyment doesn’t pay the bills.

Now I have been trying to get out of there. There was the whole music college debacle, wherein I applied to, auditioned for, and was accepted to JMC Academy, but I’m unable to go since the stupid government won’t pay me any damn money. I’ve also been applying for other jobs, and there are some promising leads there. Hopefully there will be some news on that front soon.

Now, some stuff has changed since I wrote that post.

Firstly I went through that dark period…. which was interesting, and something I ultimately had to go through. It sucked. I drank too much booze, and was doing it everyday. I thought about suicide, and was doing it everyday. I got through it mostly because of the few people who kept commenting and reading my blog (and mostly it was just emblazoned).

Secondly, there is chaotimusic.com, my music site. Where I’ve been releasing a song a week since July 31, 2007. I’ve had 3415 total plays…. and have been played on a bunch of podcasts as well. Which is pretty good for my obscure brand of mostly metal.

Thirdly…. I’m thin, and I’m going to stay that way.

Fourthly…. I have a girlfriend…. and that is going awesome. More than awesome. Like she makes me feel totally more awesome than Jesus ever did.

So…. that’s where I’m at, a mostly better place than I was when I was a brainwashed Jesus zombie. Sure, it would be nice to get the whole job thing to somewhere more stable, but I haven’t been suicidal all year, and its not like I’m totally broke. Just a little broke.